Nothing Changes 18 April 2006

Nothing Changes

Tuesday, April 18, 2006  8:40 PM

I talked to mom briefly today. She is spending a lot of time in the bathroom. She isn't sure what to do. She is having a lot of cramping like she did before when she went to the hospt. Bummer. They are putting down a green carpet in their bedroom and evidently had painted the room as well. I hope it fits.

Ian asked his dad to web cam him. After the other night when I got annoyed that he didn't say something about the final Elec bill I haven't talked to him. Nothing changes. I doubt it ever will. I got hopeful there for a moment. So, when he was talking to Ian he wanted to know why I wasn't talking to him. I pointed out the last conversation we had, that, as usual, he can't remember things he has said.

I just told him (Jim)  he was never going to change and I really had nothing to talk to him about any more. He said, "Well, punish me then." I told him he brought it on himself. I am not sure if his dad was in the room or not. I know he was at some point.

I need to get his presents ready to ship out for his birthday. As Ian said, You love him. Yes, I said but loving him and speaking to him are two different things! I don't like that Jim made comments to Ian about missing talking to me on the phone. I don't think he should draw the children in. I told Ian if Daddy said anything about mommy again to tell him he (Dad) had to talk to Mom about it.

The boys were enthralled with some pigeon egg they saved from falling out of the tree. It has kept them pretty engulfed. I was behind today getting up. I think I am pms-ing as I have been tired the last couple of days and was grouchy in class today and yesterday.

I am going off and either work on my books or Dr. Phil book.


Mommy loves you all. SM MacLeod J