I was sitting down eating before I had to go pick up the kids. My dad walked in. Like I always do I said,
"Hi, Pop. How you doing?"
"I want the keys to the van."
"I don't know where they are. She's asleep."
"I want the keys."
"We were going to return the van. After her apt tomorrow."
"Can you take her to her apt tomorrow?"
"No, I have to pick up Ian. I have to take Ian to school & pick him up because he got hurt. Her apt is at 1 pm & I don't know how long she will take & I have to pick up Ian because he got hurt."
"Well she's not borrowing the car again. If she wants a lift she can call me."
"Why are you being like this?"
"Like what?"
"This." My arms outstretched.
"Do you know the last time she called me?"
"No."
"Two weeks ago, before she left. Well, she text me at 2 am to tell me she got there."
"Well, you left a not so nice message on her phone."
"That's right. That's right. After Maggie called me & told me what was going on. I went to call Jerry & he said Tonya had already called him."
"She didn't call him, I did."
"He said Tonya called him."
"Well, she called Maggie. Maggie said she would call you & Tonya said ok. Then she got the message from you."
"And you didn't even come in when you came & got the cat."
"I went to get the darn thing. I was looking everywhere for it. It wasn't under the porch. I was mad because you didn't believe me."
"Believe you about what?"
"That I saw the cat in video with the dogs. The cat was in a picture with Tea."
"Well, yeah, if it is still, but the moment the cat moves she is after it! All three of them were after her under the ramp. I pulled the side off & she had been clawing & was all muddy. She ran in the house, got a drink, & got mud all over the damned house! Then she was out on the dog house clawing at the dogs."
"Well, what was I supposed to do about it? I have enough in my house to take care of!"
"Well, what was I supposed to do?"
"Just leave it."
"Well I wasn't going to put up with it any more; it had been going on for 5 hrs. It was that or shoot the damn thing."
"And you didn't call her about the cat."
"Why? Was she going to come home & get it?"
"No, but it is her cat."
" I know it was her cat. And that is something I blame you for. I think you instigated that."
"What?"
"Her bringing out the cats."
"No, I didn't. She just figured since she was moving out there she would bring some out. The only thing I asked was that she move out there sooner."
"Well, that won't be happening now."
"Oh, so you are mad & so you aren't going to let us move out there now."
"Not unless you two have an attitude change."
"Why are you being like this?"
"Like what? Tell me. Tell me."
"Just different."
"I am not the one being different."
"Yes you have. You sat right there & I told you that you were different when you came back from England."
"I know you did, but you didn't say how."
"You just have. You barely spoke at my birthday. Father's day we didn't know if you liked anything."
"You don't tell me these things."
"We don't know what to say or do. I just asked Tess what to do @ your birthday because we don't even know if you liked anything. Everyone says your different Tam, Kim, Maggie have said something is different."
"Well, I don't know how Kim could know I saw her about 5 min. When was the last time I saw her?"
"Sept when you were in KS."
"Exactly."
"Did you know mom wasn't very happy on that trip?"
"How do you know that?"
"We talked when we were outside. You were all looking at the house."
"That isn't what she told me."
"Well, she told me."
"Well, I can only go on what she told me."
"Well you haven't been in to see us."
"Why should I?"
"You haven't invited us out since you got back."
"No! No! And I'm not going to. Why should I? (Angry) You can come out any time, just let me know."
"You haven't said anything about the kids coming out."
"When did they ask?"
"Connor asked the last time he saw you."
"Who did he ask?"
"Me, but you didn't say maybe I can talk to your mom & you can come out."
"I don't know why you want to come out anyway, you never do anything but sit there. Why don't you go outside & play with your kids?"
"You have NO idea what I do with my kids. You have no idea what I go through!"
"No, because you never tell me. You hardly ever came out to see your mother anyway. I wonder if you even cared about her."
"I talked to my mother every week. I talked to her about the genealogy when I found something new & she would get excited about it. I understand you lived with mom a long time & that is hard, but we lost her too. She is our mother. Never once have you asked me how I am doing with her loss. Not once."
I looked at my watch. It was 5 until 3 pm & I was crying so hard.
"I have to go get Ian now."
"You can tell her if she wants a ride to call me."
"Why don't you tell her! Why do I have to tell her?!"
"Is she asleep?"
I walked into Tess room where she was happily sleeping & I was sobbing!
Tess asked what was wrong & I told her Pop was taking the van. She said, "So let him."
"I know, but I have to get Ian & Faith."
(Tess) "I'll get Faith, you go get Ian."
I walked out of the house with Pop following.
Not sure how the outside talk started, but I said, so you are going to punish us by not letting us move into the house.
He made some comment that Tess had left a mess in the kitchen & the only thing she told him was a note @ the cat. I pointed out again that he saw her before she left for KS.
Again it came up that I said he never asked me @ mother, so not sure. At this point I was so upset I can't remember it straight, at least not now. Tess came out, pushed me towards my car & said, "Go get Ian." She walked to go get Faith.
I cried until Faith's apt at 3:30 pm.
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