I wonder if anyone knows why, because I don't. I wonder if anyone knows what I did, because I don't. I miss my mum & I miss my family in the U.K. I miss my extended family here in the U.S. & even though my sister is back & my best friend is here (& boy it is a good thing) there are some days I can feel so very alone.
I think I feel really far apart from my Auntie Brenda. I always loved talking to her, but Tony tells her things....I expect she may have known about this woman, but like my friend said she wouldn't have said anything as she wouldn't have felt it wasn't her place. Boy she should have! My mom was gone, I would have wanted her too! There was no one else that would have told me & Tess. No one else would have known.
I am not sure what I am supposed to have done. The last time I saw hime was after Easter when he was all giddy about his girlfriend. Anyone who is on here can see how I was struggling with that. I haven't done anything since that. I don't call & borrow money every other day. In fact I haven't borrowed a dime from him since my mum passed at all. I would think he'd like that. The only money my sister borrowed was a loan for a vehicle, which she is paying monthly. Not sure what she did either, but the "B" reference what that she was "acting like a bitch like the other one." Darn we are a pair then, huh! What a nasty thing to tell you daughters. But then again, I guess we really aren't are we?
My sister found a really nice plaque & we gave it to him - about even though he wasn't our biological dad, to us he was out real dad. Well, today we found it left on a shelf in the house with things he didn't want along with some family photos, including some of Faith, Ian & pictures of him & my mum when they first met. I am curious how we are to take that. See, my sister just gets mad. I am still a sentimental moron & I brought it home. I guess because that is who I remember who I remember my dad as. As in past tense.
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