Closing Tomorrow!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006 3:33 PM


Well, what a day already. First the kids went to the dentist for a check up. Ian had trouble with the cleaning and he has 4 loose teeth! Faith did great and is fine. She was very proud of herself and was good through the cleaning and dentist. Connor was fine. Turns out the last tooth he took out with a cap in the back, left the roots. Jim actually said this. He also needs fit for a spacer. Ian doesn't need his any more because his tooth is coming in.

After that we went to WM for Milk and the kids each got a drink cup/container. I paid off the PNM balance Jim owed, the water, and just need to get the electric when it comes. I ordered the GPS watches for the kids this am and feel really glad about that! 

Sharon called about closing tomorrow when I was at PNM. The guys are working on the roof. I got Sonic and we came home. Sharon was going to schedule the carpet and then called back a bit later. It turns out the mortgage doesn't have my updated VA Certification yet! Now I may not get to close tomorrow. She said she may have to draw up an early occupancy. This is a pain!

Arranging Maijong

 

Well, I got the bathroom cleaned and mopped, the kitchen mopped and the rugs out, and the rug out of the laundry room and mopped. I guess that is is just now. 

SM MacLeod

Almost There!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 7:48 AM

Yesterday, after a bit on Pres Washington and Lincoln, I packed, cleaned, painted, etc. Getting ready to go. Today I have to go to a VA apt for a physical for my Life Insurance. We'll see what this new doctor is like.

I am making pancakes and waiting on my folks to watch the kids.


3:13 PM

Well, GMa & PaPa survived! I dropped off 4 of the desks before my apt. The dr. filled out the form and I got an HIV and pg test. Rule that out. I got soap and the kids a treat on my way home. Found Faith a purple juice cup.

Been packing all day. We are nearly there. I don't have much left. Mostly kitchen food and the computers and one tv. I reduced that today. My bed. Clothes. Really I am almost there! I called Debbie, but she was busy or didn't know. So, I am hoping she will call with a date to close today.

Anyway, I am just waiting on that, really. Anxious to go! Anxious to get the carpet in. I hope it is before Friday!  SM MacLeod

Feb 19, 2006

Sunday, February 19, 2006 2:24 PM


Well, the diet thing; not so good. The waiting thing, not so patient. The closing thing, is happening this week and I could go nuts waiting!

We'll have class tomorrow, which is a holiday for everyone else. Tues I have a physical for the insurance with VA. Grandma and Papa are watching the kids. We'll see how that goes!

Jim is okay for the most part. Concerned about my closing.

Yesterday when we drove into the drive, Faith had been asleep. She asked, "Dada home?" I don't think I should have told him that. It made him sad, but still. She was too!

I got Papa new business cards made last night after a bit of printing trouble.

Jim called and I was stressed and clorox was hurting my eyes and he said he would listen to me if I wanted him to. That was the nicest thing.  Just chatted a bit to him. The kids saw him. Said hello. I haven't done much a bit of picking up, tv and computer. Entered all my addresses into the msn. Going to go!

MacLeod

Closing Tuesday!

Thursday, February 16, 2006 11:51 AM

Well, the news gets better! Yesterday it turned out I had to pay down 1st National and pay off Century 21. So, Debbie rolled in my closing costs so I could pay those. I got $700 from my dad yesterday and did that. So, at this point we should close on the house Tuesday! Yee Haw!

Faith "teaching"

I am really excited now. And it turns out that I am getting the roof done as well. Sharon said Joy has to do it due to agreement, so that is good. We can get the carpet in as soon as the papers for the house are done. It really is happening.  Ian is very excited as well.

I took a pg test. Neg. Ian was disappointed. I am not sure if I am or not!

I guess nothing too exciting is happening. Class. A Shelley is still in ICU. Mom came by and got Papa's tax forms. We met Papa's new dog, part wolf, yesterday. His name is Fantom.

Jim called sick of his family already. I don't know what to tell him. It was all over that car Dick sold Harlyn. I also don't think Jim should live with me. I just don't think it will work. I need not to have him not partaking. Ian kind of clarified it yesterday during a Dr. Phil. I was explaining this lady was upset that her husband wasn't helping in the house. I explained that was why daddy & I were arguing & he went to IA. He said I did do everything. Daddy sleeps in bed. Don't you just love kids?! :) That kind of clarified it along wth a woman on there talking about "enabling" her partner to do certain behaviors.

I am so excited about moving! I need to call about the moving estimate. I hate phoning! Ugh. But I need to get that. Well, that's it!

Funny Kids & Cats

My Three Musketeers

This is Poirot being laid upon by Tiger

Mittens & Tiger are siblings we adopted at 6 inches!

Faith playing with Bill & Tiger

Oh, no she is working with hardware!

Bill with Mittens & Tiger

My baby Poirot who is twice as big as this basket he shoves himself in!  :)



Valentine's Day Roses!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006 4:48 PM

The boys had counseling last night. In between I got the van mostly cleaned out. We got some milk and went home. I chatted with Jim a couple of times. I talked to Tony and Mom. Printed tax forms for him and I guess that was it. We had class yesterday and other than that it was calmer than it had been.

Today we had class, mostly related to Valentine's Day. I took some papers to Debbie in re to the house. The kids and I went to the house. I measured out rooms and went home, found some software and made a floor plan. I really am glad it is our little house.

Then when the door bell rang I thought it was Papa, but it was a beautiful bouquet of a dozen roses! I called Jim to thank him. The crazy man! They are beautiful! The first clear big vase I've ever gotten too. They are great! Very pretty!

The boys have been playing. Ian and I threw the frizbee a bit. Papa came by and it turns out I don't have all the right forms. And now we are just here. We had dinner and I have had a bunch of problems with the computer. Ugh.

Ian and I are watching the development of humans. Very interesting. Jim sent each of the kids a Valentine's on the computer. I printed them one and I gave them a bit of candy.

SM MacLeod

Medicine Changes & Chaos

Monday, February 13, 2006

The boys over the last several weeks have had their toys moved to the garage since they refuse to pick them up. Now they can only have them if they have points to "borrow" them. If they return them, they get a "refund".

Although the point system works to get them to get their chore chart done better in the am, they are still acting up. However, since we are in the midst of medicine changes, getting ready to move, etc. who knows!

They are increasingly mean to each other. Connor seems more angry. Ian's Zoloft seems to be making him tired during the day. His fuzzy picking has increased over the past two weeks, interfering with school.

The good point is reading gets 3 points so even Ian is more apt to read a book for points!

Waiting to move

Saturday, February 11, 2006 4:59 PM

Nothing too exciting today. I did get my front room picked up this evening, finally. I also rearranged where I work on the counter until we move. It isn't too much longer if all goes well this next week. Jim seems to think VA will be done by this week. I hope so!

Talked to Jim a bit. The weather was bad and he didn't get to go get Dick's daughter's car. He was yawning a lot on the video cam. He said he was down on the phone. Weather. He just won't do as well in IA as where it is warm.

The boys have been a handful of ornery lately! A lot of yelling, but it never helps when we are doing medicine changes on top of Jim being gone and us getting ready to move. A lot of uncertainties and upheaval again. Hopefully, though, that will end. At least they will stay in one spot from now on. I hope.

MacLeod

A Shelley - Another kick for cancer

Friday, February 10, 2006 4:35 PM


Boy to catch up! The most important would be that my Aunt Shelley had surgery today to find what was bleeding. They removed a baseball sized tumor from her left lung that was bleeding. She was having trouble breathing & put her on a ventilator. Apparently, there are a lot of questions & no one seems to know exactly what is going on. They didn't even know what was bleeding. I have never known anyone who was such a fighter! Definately taught her cancer that it can kiss her ass! :)

The kids & I have been talking to Jim and a bit to Harlyn over the video cam. I had to go get another camera the other night. The one I bought on the internet - its sound wasn't working.

Ian was sick last night about 12:20 I guess. Threw up on the front room floor. He'd come out to lay with me when he said he wasn't feeling well. That will teach me not to get up & get his bucket ready like I know I should.

The boys have had school. Today it was a bit short. We went to Walgreen's to get Connor's new prescription filled & he has started that - 1/4 a pill when we got it. Then we returned home. I sent out Jim's package after the first postage didn't print and the mailman came 2 hours early! I hadn't put the address/postage on yet!

The boys seem really full of energy this week. Ian has been bad about talking back & whining at me. Connor just can't focus unless you are so loud.

The kids made Jim a Valentine's Day card yesterday. We put it in the box with the candy & some other things he forgot. I put in my cards, a serious and a funny. I couldn't resist. Evidently, he sent something to us today. Me too!

We've been talking on MSN and saving $. We are still up with the I love you's. We'll see where it goes from here. Hopefully where the kids & I go is too our new house before March 1. They want to move in really bad & I don't blame them!
 
SM MacLeod

BP apt & Sick Kids

February 08, 2006

Yesterday the boys had class. Ian still isn't looking that great. I tried calling to verify our appt with Dr. Fiszbein only to learn that they wouldn't be in until 12:30! How do you verify when I have to leave before then?

Faith fell off her step stool when I was in the kitchen cleaning out a drawer. She hit both sides of her head. Then after a minute her nose started to bleed and we found she also had cut her nose! We hadn't noticed that. Poor girl!

Well, we arrived earlier than usual, so, I took them to the McDonald's to play for a bit. Turned out we should have stayed longer. He wasn't even at the office. We ended up getting in his office at 1:40. 40 minutes late and then we sat in there waiting on him. Maybe if he wouldn't make us wait so long the boys wouldn't be such pills. They were pills and Faith also wasn't doing so well.

Ian got an increase in Risperdal. Connor was taken off the Concerta and is starting a new one for concentration and focusing. He also got an increase in his Ability to 35 mg. Dr. F says the hyper sexuality shows he is still having control issues. That people release stress in different ways and this could be his.

I talked to Jim on the cell on the way to Big Lots. We got a few things. After that I stopped at Outback and the kids and I ate dinner. It was good. Then we shared a desert, which luckily for my waistline, they inhaled. I think Faith got a whopping 4 bites! It was nice even though they were acting up today. I am really broke now! I called Jim and Ian and Faith talked to him.

We made it home. I stopped and got gas and Ian tinkled. And I got a lottery ticket since it is 210 Million! Why not try, right? I don't even want a million! Too much trouble.

Jim called again to make sure we had made it back. Baths, & ready for bed. Then Jim was on MSN, we got the cameras to work & he & the kids got to see each other. He called & I put him on speaker phone & they could talk and hear him too! It was fun. Faith was playing peek a boo & waving & throwing kisses. It was cute! She was saying names & "meow meow".

I got the kids to bed later.  I had to move Faith & I out into the front room. She killed our little heater & it was cold. Besides, with just me & the boys it is better to have less!

Today we had class. Ian is really feeling bad today. They did well, except Ian & reading. I just guess we keep practising.

I cleaned out the rest of the room Faith & I were in again. All clear in there except a clothes pile I need get out. One less room to clean out! The garage is getting full! I am waiting to hear from Debbie to see if we can close sooner. If we can close before March 1, will ask them to release me from the lease. That would be helpful to pay off PNM & the transfer fees & not owe my dad quite as much.

Well, that is it really. Ian sounds sick, Connor said he is tired, & Faith had nasty pants! What fun! They are eating soup & I am off of here.  SM MacLeod

Positive Temperature?

February 06, 2006

Today started off interesting. Connor wasn't feeling well & tried to take his temperature with my pregnancy test! He said, to my yelling, that he thought it was a temperature thing. It was a funny later & when I talked to Jim this evening he asked how it turned out. I said lets hope it turned out not pregnant!

The boys had class & that went well today although they weren't feeling the greatest.

We watched a video on James, the brother of Jesus. Connor started the nacho thing so we all had some. After a while I heard Ian say, "What did you do?" It was cute, but I thought, "That can't be good", & went to see. Faith had her own nacho plate ready with shredded cheese about 6 inches high & to a point! It was so funny I just had to laugh.  I put the picture on my camera phone since I gave Jim mine. My new one hasn't arrived yet.

I did a lot of print outs for class. Connor was mostly on the computer. Ian was some. They watched a bit of tv. I picked up, cleaned, & did the mom thing.

Jim called this afternoon. Connor didn't want to talk. Ian & Faith were in the bath. Faith was motioning that I put the phone up to her ear. So they chatted to Dadda a bit. Then me. He was on his way to dinner. I guess Barb didn't make any & Harlyn was "bitching to be bitching". Jim's words. I said he was being his usual grumpy self. Jim said Yeah.

He called again after he ate. I didn't expect him to call again. He said he was probably going to set up the computer at his moms since he will be staying there for 3 weeks house sitting. I hope so, so Connor may talk and "see" his dad.

This evening was fine. All a bit sniffly. Faith spit her medicine back out at me.  Fun. C & I took some & their airborne. All are in bed now & I am off of here! Going to watch my Two and a 1/2 men!  Night. I love you all! SM MacLeod 8:02 PM

Getting Ready for the Move!

I talked to Jim about 10 to 2am. He was about an hour out from IA. He called later in the am. He then went to Wal-Mart he said after he arrived. He talked to Faith and Ian. Connor declined, which is usual. He doesn't like talking to his dad on the phone. Hopefully, the camera for the computer will arrive and then we can "see" him. He said he loved me and I him.

Today wasn't overly productive. I did move the kids' tv into my room. I moved everything out of the front room. I put the couches in the garage. Downsizing! I can't wait to be moved!  Now I just need to see if I can get my desk stuff out. I am not sure. I need the computer, but probably not the desk. I can put it out. Then that will be nearly everything. :0)

SM MacLeod

Good Goodbye

Jim and I had very good four days. Yesterday I packed up some of his things. He called from Cloudcroft where he was helping Papa with a chimney. The kids and I drove up and picked him up. I asked him not to go. I told him I didn't want him to go. He is still going. He says we need some space. That is true. He also needs it from the kids, which as he said was sad, but true. We do have a high stress home. And I realized things too late. It was my fault.  (I was SUCH an idiot thinking that! Ugh. 28 Mar 2011)

We talked a lot though and that was good. I said if we did live together we had to share a room again. It just separates us too much otherwise. Jim did some other things he needed to do before his trip. We ran to Mom & Tony's so mom could take a couple of family photos of us. We went to Applebee's from there. We waited ages. It was a pain. Luckily it was good!

By the time we were done we went to the ATM so I could pay Jim back as we didn't want to wait for a debit card to pay. I gave him $50 extra for him and his trip.

We talked a bit before going to sleep. I told him I didn't want him to leave. I said something about him finding someone and he pointed out he could have met someone here. He had a point! That happens. I think it is just human nature.

We slept together last night in my bed. Neither of us slept that great. Ian got up at 3:30 and I had a real hard time going back to sleep. He got up and got dressed to go get donuts. I had just gotten up and thought the same thing.

We finished packing him. I told him to come back to me. He said he would. I said, promise. He said can't make promises. That is what I had always told him. I don't because too many people promise things and can't keep the promises. He told us all goodbye. I walked him out. Hugged him, and said, I suppose I have to let go now. He said yes. He is a bummer some times!

Poor Faith doesn't understand he isn't coming home right now. I tried telling her "Dadda is going away" she has this solemn "Oh." And then says, "Num-nums?" I said, "No." And she said, "Oh". She is a doll.

He was nearly to Liberal when he called. He thought he'd stay there, but he wasn't tired and it was only 4:30 I think. He talked to the kids and we talked a bit, said I Love You's. Faith heard the door a couple of times and said, "Dadda?" She picked up the cell after he'd hung up to talk to Dadda. Ian told me she wanted to talk to him.

Well, the day was pretty normal and the evening is too so far. Crazy, but normal!

Come What May

Well, as usual nothing is simple between Jim & I. Sex was, perhaps not a mistake, but definitely confusing. I realized how much Jim was right about how little I appreciate him. This wasn't the sex thing. This was thinking about how I will get along without him. We talked a bit last night as to whether we should be "done" while he is gone. We do believe we cannot live together.

He took some of his stuff to Rick. Rick will pay him tomorrow. We had sex again last night. Jim says it is because we have the stress of the relationship lifted with his leaving. Very possible. But simply put I don't know how I will pay the utilities and get along without him to help me.

Today I will ask him to stay. As my mother said, some times you have to overlook some things to get others. That is what compromise is. And Dr. Phil also says to "ask" for what you want. I need to treat him more like the boys and not assume he knows what I think he should do. Even if I do!

I also pointed out we had a better sex life living apart. I think that was due to stress & expectations and simply my paranoia to "perform".

If he decides he is going to IA for the 4-6 months, then I will have to assume we are split up & get along with my life. After that time there is a good chance he will meet someone else & that is just how it will have to be. I can't sit here for that time wondering if he will come back to me. It is like Ian said at the Panorama house when Jim &I broke up, "Well, you can't cry forever." Children can see things so simply :) & it is true. I can't. So, if Jim needs to move on his own after paying everyone off then that too is okay. We just seem to clash in the same house. Go figure!

Class was short &I was stressed. I am out of ink & my ink hasn't arrived yet. It is annoying. Anyway, I guess that is where everything is at this point. It will all hinge on Jim's decision. I don't expect he will stay.   9:22 PM

The day was a mess of stress & mixed emotions & feelings. After class I went to a couple of thrift stores & I got the kids some items. I found two shirts for me that I hope look okay.

Jim went to take some more things to sell. We had dinner; my fried chicken strips. Then we went to Wal-Mart so I could get an ab-lounge. Then we went to take the kids to Baskin Robbins. I figure it was good to take them there since they like to go with their dad. Faith & I popped into Kmart; I needed a new scrubby. I also picked up some candy for the kids' Valentines & got Jim some Turtles & boxer shorts that have hot peppers that are hearts. Something to remember NM by!

The kids went to bed and Jim & I talked. Connor was & is having a hard time going to sleep. Jim & I are so confused it isn't funny! We made love again. Looking at each other, loving, & caring. Who knows what will come of it all. He said, why am I leaving? I said for a Vacation. We need this. We really do. He does, I do. We will just have to see what comes of it all. Who knows!

Connor is still awake. Ugh. Jim is helping Papa tomorrow put in a fireplace and wood stove. I will pack some of his stuff for him. I think my dad will miss him too!

SM MacLeod 9:43 PM