I was retaining water & ballooned up. I couldn't remove my wedding rings & was told to watch my salt intake, but I didn't use much any ways. I had preclampsia. Could request much more? Well, after this, if you looked at me, I looked like I was pregnant with at least twins.
I finished my semester at college & stopped work in August. We moved to a new house on the Air Force Base. I was due 17 Sept.
Upon looking back I could tell you that Connor, my first son, was a wild child before birth. We went to see a movie when I was pregnant & he moved the entire time. This was no 1 1/2 movie either! (Turned out to be a favorite of his as well.)
I don't think anyones life is stress free & my pregnancy wasn't. I was thrilled to find I was pregnant. I was in love & engaged, but that I learned isn't always enough. My future mother-in-law was not happy & I never felt comfortable; she never seemed happy with me. Put that, being in college & working, a visit from an ex-wife & suddenly having a 4 year old to care for, mostly alone, who could have an easy pregnancy!
Even early on the baby moved so much that sleep was fleeting. Then there was the false labor(s). I was up hours sorting through recipes in the middle of the night, breathing through the pains. I had so much nausea that the doctor gave me medicine, but the medicine made me fall asleep.
There are so many children with disorders, illnesses, & pain & although I can't tell you why, I know even I, as a mother, have my theories.
My son, Connor, has often cried about his illnesses & asked me why. Although it isn't always easy, I tell him that God made him this way for a reason. Perhaps he will find a cure, so another child won't have to ask why.
I am a single mother now. I am raising three children; two that have multiple issues. I am hoping that my third child has escaped having her own, but even she cannot escape living with it.
My ex also has many issues. I could no longer care for his illnesses, the children's, & protect them from the volitile relationship that came from it. My ex coulnd't handle his own life led alone a wife & children.
